Its strange, when im in moods like this. I dont want to tell anyone, because I dont want to inconvenience them; through worrying them or making them feel like they need to check up on me or even because I’m worried that I might come across as attention seeking or guilt tripping. But theres still that bit of me that screams for someone to actively care, to proactively see if im okay.
I think whats saddest is in moods like this I crave physical contact most of all. Yet I know, now more than ever, that placing all my happiness in a person is an incredibly unhealthy thing to do.
Doesnt stop me from wanting it though.